Showin' how funky strong is your fight.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
{ 6:04 AM on '' }


today we got locked out of our own house. that sure was fun. if you dont sense the sarcasm, go bang your head on the wall five times. my mum couldnt cant find her keys and i didnt bring mine and yada yada, finally my aunt who has a spare key had to come down all the way from woodlands. in the meantime, unpleasant things happened. sometimes, you just have to learn to keep your mouth shut. afterall, silence is golden.

to make the long story short, i currently have three nephews and a niece running around my house. and considering my high tolerance level, well. too bad for them.

nowadays what annoys me the most is people coming to me to complain about how fat they are and how they've gained a lot of weight. seriously. what on earth do you think you're doing complaining to an overweight bobo about your weight? if you're doing it to fish for compliments (of course you'd expect me to go, "oh dont worry! you're not fat. i would die to have a body like yours") then screw you.

okay i should be memorising my speech for malay pt, so goodbye. always remember to bring your keys.

Friday, July 14, 2006
{ 7:30 AM on '' }


merry christmas!

or not. i'm quite high now. which is a big thing cos i've been extremely angsty the whole week. to people whom i've snapped at or better still, ignored completely, i'm sorry! it wasnt me, really. it was like, my evil twin taking over. or something. then again, it's probably just pms.

anw yesterday was the funnestest of all si shows! because we were actually in the moshpit! like at the side of the stage. like how cool is that. THANK YOU MRS TWOHILL! and arina! hee.

but right. watching the results show live is like an emotional rollercoaster. haha. cos first you get all hyped up cos you're like, in the moshpit yo. with manymany people with manymany cool banners and posters (esp the jonathan ones!). then when you watch si extra where the idols cry here and cry there, you get sad too! way to spoil the mood. but when the idols appear, you get high! how can you not man. esp with people like PAUL who does sane things all the time. and then it's time for the results. oh, the tension. you can totally feel it man. and the idols look so scared that you cant help but panic on their behalf. and finally the results. even if you hate the person who got voted out (not that i'm implying a'thing, really), it doesnt really matter cos everyone starts crying and the atmosphere is just so... full of grief. haha. so yes, emotional rollercoaster. ceh aku step sey.

i dont get why jonathan was in the bottom 3. seriously man. it's like the chris ai thinger all over again. tsk. and nurul! why do people not like her! okay so she's not the best singer around but she's not half as bad as some other contestants. at least she's not fake and act like a goth or a prancing monkey. support nurul! and jonathan and paul!

kay enough. hmm. i think im losing brain matter to the people around me. everyone else is becoming smarter and im becoming stupider. is there a new brainmatter-sucking machine that i dont know of? if there is, please tell me. it's really quite mean. anw my mum was so disappointed in my math marks. so much so that she's convinced herself (and myself) that im never gonna make it to university if i dont do better in future. but if that evil machine really is existent then it's not exactly my fault is it.

(yes as you can see im a little delusional and totally not in self-denial.)

dang there's open house tmr. oh the joy. deck the halls with bows of holly.

Sunday, July 09, 2006
{ 7:34 AM on '' }


the tv in the bedroom works! :D:D so i finally watched just my luck.

the sph thinger yesterday wasnt as bad as i expected. it was entertaining and enlightening at the same time. the green shirt dude was really funny! he used really amusing words! i cant remember any, other than kongcarikong. even he doesnt know what it means. /: he made us realise how dangerous his job really is, and that you need to have really good memory and lots of toilet paper. nevermind. then we had presentations. yadayada, i thought we deserved something. but oh well. i know the part that nunu enjoyed most was towards the end when she met her old friend. (;(;(;

then we went to bugis. which was highly unproductive. i so dont enjoy idol events man. unless i acutally go early and get a freaking poster. so yes, im not psyched to go for idol events. i do, however, want to go for spectaculars. hee. so if you have an extra ticket, PICK ME! (:

i read the blog. whoa, it's highly disturbing. but i do believe in freedom of speech, so i respect her right to say whatever she wants. i dont exactly agree with her on the issues she talks about, but i admire her guts. no wait, i dont. though i do think it's rather impressive. but it's unfair to condemn her. whatever lah eh. at least i found another blog to visit for my daily dose of entertainment. :D

i really should go finish up my analisa.

Thursday, July 06, 2006
{ 6:02 AM on '' }


all crime shows and no cartoons makes maryam a paranoid girl. i think i've been watching too much csi. plus criminal minds. criminal minds freaks me out! when you watch csi it's more like, whoaaa cool ah the crime / the way they solve the crime. but for criminal minds it feels more real, like it could happen anytime and anywhere, even to you. and the criminals are the randomest of people. it's quite freaky, really. or maybe it's just me. but recently i've been quite paranoid. heh. when it's late and the lights are off im afraid someone would just jump out from the shadows to attack me or sth. and when i come home from school late and i hear footsteps behind me im tempted to sprint to the lift and quickly close the door. and no, im not losing my mind. maybe only slightly.

anw i realised, the more i try to abstain from eating, the greater my desire to eat. WHY. ): sucks balls. i dont know how ano people do it. very high self-discipline man. or actually, just a warped mind i guess.

i hate chem. and bio, for that matter. as you can tell, im a very science person. totally right. i dont even enjoy practicals. except for that explosive demo just now which set off the fire alarm. so that's what chem teachers do for fun, tsk.

yknow how some people only see the good things in others? i only see the annoying things. all i see is how annoying everyone is. yes, everyone. the things that i notice about everyone are their annoying traits. dont tell me you have no annoying trait okay. if you want, i could point it out to you. gladly. whatever. im annoyed by myself.

MARYAM (:
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