Showin' how funky strong is your fight.
Friday, July 14, 2006
{ 7:30 AM on '' }


merry christmas!

or not. i'm quite high now. which is a big thing cos i've been extremely angsty the whole week. to people whom i've snapped at or better still, ignored completely, i'm sorry! it wasnt me, really. it was like, my evil twin taking over. or something. then again, it's probably just pms.

anw yesterday was the funnestest of all si shows! because we were actually in the moshpit! like at the side of the stage. like how cool is that. THANK YOU MRS TWOHILL! and arina! hee.

but right. watching the results show live is like an emotional rollercoaster. haha. cos first you get all hyped up cos you're like, in the moshpit yo. with manymany people with manymany cool banners and posters (esp the jonathan ones!). then when you watch si extra where the idols cry here and cry there, you get sad too! way to spoil the mood. but when the idols appear, you get high! how can you not man. esp with people like PAUL who does sane things all the time. and then it's time for the results. oh, the tension. you can totally feel it man. and the idols look so scared that you cant help but panic on their behalf. and finally the results. even if you hate the person who got voted out (not that i'm implying a'thing, really), it doesnt really matter cos everyone starts crying and the atmosphere is just so... full of grief. haha. so yes, emotional rollercoaster. ceh aku step sey.

i dont get why jonathan was in the bottom 3. seriously man. it's like the chris ai thinger all over again. tsk. and nurul! why do people not like her! okay so she's not the best singer around but she's not half as bad as some other contestants. at least she's not fake and act like a goth or a prancing monkey. support nurul! and jonathan and paul!

kay enough. hmm. i think im losing brain matter to the people around me. everyone else is becoming smarter and im becoming stupider. is there a new brainmatter-sucking machine that i dont know of? if there is, please tell me. it's really quite mean. anw my mum was so disappointed in my math marks. so much so that she's convinced herself (and myself) that im never gonna make it to university if i dont do better in future. but if that evil machine really is existent then it's not exactly my fault is it.

(yes as you can see im a little delusional and totally not in self-denial.)

dang there's open house tmr. oh the joy. deck the halls with bows of holly.

MARYAM (:
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