Showin' how funky strong is your fight.
Monday, November 27, 2006
{ 5:33 AM on '' }


FINALLY, kem kewartawanan! ah i loved it as much as i had to admit it cos that would make cg happy. unlike SOME camps i actually feel like i've learnt something from this one. i've totally like become inspired to be a journalist for bh!

i miss the good food [TEH TARIIIIIK], the freezing auditorium, the weird participants, even weirder fascis, the interviews, the tasks, the deadlines and of course, my good friend the kamus dwibahasa.

day 1!

dian couldnt make it, so guess who replaced her!
kak farina!

so we were split into groups and our fascilitator was HADI. nope not mirza. more like amalina's brother haahha. first we had scavenger hunt as an icebreaker, which was super pointless because at the end of the day i still didnt know anyone's names. right. hmm nothing much happened on the first day i think, just presentations on what journalism was all about and ways to interview people, esp those who've lost their loved ones. so then we had a practice session. the scenario was this guy passed away in a motorcycle accident. and hadi was the "father" so we were supposed to "interview" him.

wartawan: pernah tak encik menghalang anak encik dari mengambil lesen motosikal?
hadi: tu lah, pakcik memang tak suka dia naik motor. dari dulu pakcik dah cakap, mat-mat moto ni semua mampos siang punya. tengok la apa dah jadi sekarang!
hello your son just died? haha. and then we were supposed to write an article on that imaginary accident.

maryam: ok let's do this.
fads: ok, blablablablabla
kakfarina: yea! then you can say blablablablabla
ani: and end with blablablablabla
maryam: ok great! we have our article....IN ENGLISH.
fads: oh no how to translate?!
maryam: maybe if we SPEAK in malay we'll THINK in malay too!
kakfarina: ok let's try! kita....
-silence-

and that's about as far as we went. we were the most english-speaking group la, to the extent that the other groups plus the journalists felt the need to speak to us in english too though they usually speak malay. oops.
ohyes, on the first day also, kakfarina came up with this theory about how norman and hadi look good together, thus this attempt at taking a picture of them together.

hadi's on the left, norman on the right.

and that's about it for day one?

day 2!

much much funner! the day before they mentioned that a band flown in from america was coming so we were like, excited. but before that they taught us about photography and showed us some very disturbing photos. think aborted foetuses and suicide victims. and then task time! this time an article about the epson bus, with photos. i'm too lazy to explain what it is and what it does.

yes yes, we're loser like that.


and because some time ago nurul was making a big fuss about buses not having seatbelts and that they should and yada yada yada,



show some love man, we're willing to look retarded for your sake!

ok, fast forward to the part where the american band arrives.


HELLO M-PACT.





they sang like 3 songs for us. [: and i know you didnt go for their concert even though I TOLD YOU TO. it was AWEEEEESOMEEEEE. it was great to watch something a capella instead of those typical performances by local artistes [read SI finalists] heh. britt's [bottom row, 2nd from right] voice is the sex ok. and jeff [right of britt] omg he's the best drummer ever. and he doesnt even use drums! marco of course is damn hot and is the best trumpeteer ever! of course, without using trumpets.

oh yes, so we had a mini press conference thing, which pissed me off a little because people kept asking questions which were already answered in the damn press release. and some asked very ungrammatical questions so it was hard for m-pact to understand them. seriously i have nothing against you if your english isnt fluent or whatever but the least you could do is think of what you want to say before you stand at the mic and stutter and embarrass yourself.

after that they allowed us to take pictures with m-pact. [: i only took with marco cos he's the hottest and i'm shallow like that. ): shut up, i regret it now ok. anw this is where i realise that a lot of people at the camp came from Planet Zero Situational Awareness.

maryam: marco! can i take a... OOMPH. -gets shoved away. [mutters under breath] bitch.

random girl: MARCO omg can i take a picture with you! -turns to me- can you help me take?

maryam: erm, okay...

random girl: oh and dont shake ok.

maryam: okay. [mutters under breath] bitch.

you dont shove a pmsy girl away from a hot guy ok. and that was more or less day two.

day 3!

how exciting, we got to meet colby! he's super funny omg. we had a "press conference" thing again. because i like to think of nonsense questions, and because i dont have the courage to ask them myself...

fads: if you were an inanimate object, what would you be and why?

colby: an inaniWHAT?

fads: erm, inanimate...?

colby: i dont even know what the heck that means!

finally he answered rock. because a rock can exist forever? says the man with a degree in biology.

fads: on a scale of 1 to 10...

colby: TEN.

fads: ???? erm, okay...?

colby: okok, what's the question?

fads: on a scale of 1 to 10, rate how hot you think you are.

colby: OH NO not ten!



colby: 3 things i would bring on an island? erm, a hatchet, some sort of flame and... a chapstick.
kak suryani: why a chapstick?
colby: -like a total bimbo- because my lips get chapped. hellooo?




TOO CUTE RIGHT.

so of course after that we had to write an article on him. plus figure out how to fit that, with the epson bus article and the m-pact article all on the same page. alamak stress man. ten minutes before the deadline we havent finished pasting the articles, our photos had no captions and one of the articles didnt have a headline. haha.



the masterpiece in the making. [: so rush here rush there, panic here panic there and woo we were done! when we submitted it, i took a step back and compared it to everyone else's. and concluded that our page looked damn cacat. but nvm it's over!

while waiting for the verdict by the judges, the journalists kept us occupied with their life stories [actually only hadi la hahah] and weird quizzes. if you answer a question correctly you get a hady [yes mirza] poster hahha. i was waiting for them to ask something i would know, like what is the name of the muis president, but the closest thing they asked was what is the name of m'sia's president. how am i supposed to know?

then results! first shocker: best editor. we just looked at each other and burst out laughing hahaha. ani was like in shock cos she's like editor la. so she got this letter which said that she won a CX-4811 or sth like that. we were like OMG she won a camera that's so unfairrrrr. second shocker: SECOND PLACE. we just laughed harder man! so we went to receive this big box which we assumed contained a printer cos that's what they said winners would get. after that we were like wth are we gonna do with a printer. who's gonna lug it home, who's gonna bring it back to school [it's supposed to be donated to the school]. and so we did the only thing we could think of. ask people around us if they wanted to buy the damn printer from us hahahha. of course everyone just ignored us. we were like ohno-ing when i finally said i wanted to at least look at the printer first. lo and behold, the damn box didnt contain a printer! there was a whole bunch of stuff like notebooks and cds and stuff. hahahha paisey. AND the "camera" that ani won wasnt a camera at all. THAT was the printer ahhhaha. i swear, we're so dumb.


with the deceiving box. notice what's written on the box. ooh dangerous.

after that we were just basking in our stupidity and making a fool of ourselves. and we took more pictures!



with hadi. [:

and for kakfarina's sake.


us: hadi can we take a picture of you with norman?

hadi: only the two of us?

us: erm, yup?

hadi: -looks suspicious- whyyyy?

us: nothing, for fun!

hadi: ookay... dont put up on gay websites ok!

-

hadi: eh dorang nak amek gambar kiter.

norman: two people only?

hadi: yea. they want to put up on gay websites.

normam: oh. okay cool. -puts arm around hadi and grins-



ah so yes that was kem kewartawanan. i so want to go again. or do wep there or something. anw ignore the angsty parts of this entry, it's the pms.


Friday, November 24, 2006
{ 6:27 AM on '' }


i'll blog about kem kewartawanan soon . that is, if dian sends me pictures sometime in this century hahaha.

My teacher once said that
I'm not very smart, but hardworking.

When I'm nervous
i tremble/shiver? no that's when i get excited. whatever it is it's subconscious so yea i dont know?

The last time I laughed
when i watched a clip of taufik's press conference where siti faxed him something.

Hair
IS DAMN FUGLY.

My feet
are fugly too. skin's like shedding.

When I turn my head left
i see svh senior year no.46. title's prom night.

When I turn my head right
i see the taufik cd?

When I look down
my neck hurts.

I have a hard time understanding
CHEM HELLO CHEM. dearest. myself sometimes.

You know I like-like you
when i transform into lorelai. yknow, babble incessantly. or when i completely ignore you?

I won an award, the first person I'll thank is
God?

Triangles
are cuter than squares, but uglier than circles.

My ideal breakfast is
i dont eat breakfast?

Boys
should study hard so that they can get a good job so that they can become rich so that their wives can like, shop.

I'd stop my wedding if
there was like a bombing or terrorist attack of some sort. or if my partner's ex-gf appears all preganant with his baby.

The world could do
with more people like me erm. i dont know. nelson mendela?

I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than
kiss dearest? ewww sick. ): scratch that, i'd rather EAT the cockroach. plus its whole family.

Most recent thing you've bought yourself
Lime magazine and bh? see i've become like, a bh junkie.

Most recent thing someone else bought you
a drink?

My least favourite time of the day
whenever i'm in school.

The last time I was high
kem kewartawanan? ok that's not exactly high. HIGH high would be wish upon a star recording? some people too hot la.

The last person I talked to
my mum, about how hot taufik is hahaha.

I shouldn't
be so damn temperamental.

There's this girl I know
who has a tongue piercing. [:

I'm listening to
sombong by fik.

On my table
are piles of unopened Times magazines.

My full name is
paris hilton.

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1) WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?cos i'm not like this. duh.

2) I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
oh really. good for you.

3) LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY, YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
HAHA you're funny.

4) COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT
okay. :D

5) PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
kiss my ass.

6) I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU
aww that ish sho schweet. [;

7) WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
well it cant come after tuesday now can it cos then where would wednesday go.

8) I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
YES. MIKE SHINODA :D :D

9) YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
stop sucking up already.

10) I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU
dude, really.

11) I CAN'T SMILE WITHOUT YOU
then dont. i so care?

12) THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST AREN'T HIM/HER
thank you for what?! wtf is your problem.

13) NOTHING
?

14) WHAT'S YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
1800-why-the heck-am-i-doing-this.

15) CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE?
oookay?

16) MAY I ESCORT YOU?
sure, whatever.

17) DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM/HER TILL NOW?
YES. whoever you;re talking about.

18) YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING I WANTED
we were meant to be supposed to be but we lost it.

19) WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET EYES?
never.

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omg that was so irritating.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006
{ 4:05 AM on '' }


so kem kewartawanan isnt over yet, but here's a preview!


say hellooooo to MARCO CASSONE. [: he's the cofounder cum business director of m-pact. i know, you've never heard of them right. neither have i, until today. m-pact is basically a six-man jazz acapella band and they're like awesomeeee. yes people, the hottie up there can sing. they're having a concert this sunday, 26th nov at UCC hall, NUS at 730pm. tickets priced at $26 (students), $28, $32, $36 are available at sistic so everyone go get your tickets nowwwwwww.


the bh people totally spoiled the surprise. we know who the "mystery" guest star for tomorrow is. nope, it's neither hady [much to everyone's disappointment] nor imran/taufik [much to my disappointment hahahha]. he's an mtv vj, and no it isnt utt. if you still cant figure out who it is go knock your head against the wall.


ok i have an article to write so yea shall update some other time.


oh yes, LOOK WHAT NICOLE CAN DO.



Friday, November 17, 2006
{ 5:58 AM on '' }


tralala. i am catching up with the gilmore girls episodes in america like wahooooo! paul anka has made me develop a fetish for dogs. so, so adorable.

random convos during jalan raya.

nurul: oooh i feel tall! taller than everyone else. even me!
everyone: -raises eyebrows-
nurul: what? OH i mean you! even you!

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amer's sister: yea so then bush came to nus also! then -insertfriend'sname- macam, waved to him!
amer's mommy: oh eh. [with gusto] he killed all those muslims i hate him!
everyone: whoaaaaa.

-

yea ok. anyway just now DEAREST lectured fads and i about responsibility and whatnots. as usual she brought up all those irrelevant things like the academic state of the malays in rgs. dear DEAREST, again i ask you what right you have to point all those things out to us. if you EXCELLED academically [which is like, the impression you give] then why are you not a brain surgeon or lawyer or you know, something more productive? seriously i just dont get it. and if you havent realised by now, i dont care much for the cca and your lectures have made me numb, they are impactless thank you very much. so yea, save it man.

i have come to realise that as much as i hate school, there isnt any other school i'd rather be in [awwwww]. so the problem isnt THE school, it's just school in general. i think rg has given me more than enough oppurtunities to develop my potential and character and become a better person and whatnot, but i've never taken advantage of it which is why i'm this miserable bitter little teenager. i mean like there has been many many chances for me to prove that i am not stupid and hopeless contrary to popular belief, but i keep screwing them up one after another. i guess that's why i've eventually given up altogether. this is sad. next year is the last year and i am going to walk out of rg not accomplishing anything. i'm starting to think i should've joined sln, just for the heck of it yknow. but i guess it's a tad too late now isnt it? ah well. let's just see what happens next year. good luck maryam.

Sunday, November 12, 2006
{ 6:54 AM on '' }


ayeee i dont know why i'm here, apparently blogger has some sort of magical attraction that pulled me here.

anywayyyy. hmm. oh yes, raya this year is like full of crap. everyone comes together, and then oops the people we want to visit are not at home, or no one has their contact numbers, and other shitz like that. come on man. how productive is stoning at one person's house for four hours? not productive at all my friends.

i'm starting to like vivo again. [: ok so maybe this time it was because i dragged my mum along and mum=money ahhaha i am such an asshole. but she begged to go after three hours or so cos she couldnt stand the cold. ): ayeee, i need to find a strong, loaded shopping partner who is willing to go against all odds [including the freefuckingzing temperatures] to look at shop for shoes and clothes. then vivo is all MINE, mine i tell you!

i cant believe ani's luck okay. damn. noodle's the only person whom i would probably never meet ever again. i mean, paul and fik still have gigs and events and all that shitz. speaking of which, the tb.net people are not replying me WHY OH WHY. balls man.

the funniest thing happened last night. someone called to ask if i was interested in joining sln. i got the shock of my life, thankgod i didnt burst out laughing. whoever nominated me has a weird sense of humour. thanks but no thanks. i have zero leadership qualities, why would i want to humiliate myself during the interview or sln sessions. plus, i'm neither chair or vice-chair of my cca and has zero passion for it. so erm yes i think i'll pass.

okay i shall go finish my book [yes i'm reading a book, shocking isnt it] and go to bed like a good girl. i dont know why i enjoy wasting my life rambling incessantly here. toodles.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006
{ 5:26 AM on '' }


back from lead camp [and four hours of peaceful sleep]!

so i guess it wasnt that bad. i mean, i have nothing against camps, it's just the idea of a leadership camp that sucks. all the debriefs and talk about action plans and work plans and cca goals and personal leadership yada yada. err. yeaaaaah, not my cup of tea. by the end of camp i've become pro at giving politically correct answers.

so anyway, the campsite was much smaller than i expected? but two things i did like were the food and instructors. haha. we met jackie chan and taufik! only they dont act, sing or dance - they climb and kayak. i swear, mr taufik looks like a cross between abang ram and mr mat. AND YKNOW WHAT. the campsite is freaking near changi airport so literally every 10 minutes [or less] we'll hear and see a freaking plane flying above us. they were all landing so everytime we saw them they were like, biggggg cos they were kinda close to the ground already? so imagine the level of noise and how PEACEFULLY we slept at night. i woke up at least 10 times each night, covering my hands over my ears and having visions of planes crashing down on us. after awhile all of us could identify sia planes by the noise they make because OHMYGOD sia planes are THE noisiest planes on earth.

my group only got to do one high element thing, and it was the lamest of them all [though i was scared but hey i have a thing for heights ok]. i was plucking up my courage to do all the other scarier height element things, but then we stopped cos of the rain. cheat my feelings. had general stations also, which all had learning points like trust and teamwork and whatevernots. riiiight. at night we [were supposed to] discuss cca things, which crystal and i totally did man, totally. people like anzie and shuangwei of course made full use of the time but people like us and latha wasted it away. oops? so that was more or less day one.

day two was kayaking and rafting. i liked rafting, our raft floated and didnt dismantle, how amazing is that. oh yes, the next time we have camps that involve water activities, remind me to buy fake crocs. they are so practical. your feet are covered so you dont have to worry about rocks, and unlike shoes you can get rid of the sand damn easily cos like crocs are holey? plus, fake crocs cost like 6 bucks. anyway, my group served lunch all sandy and wet. then we had kayaking. didnt do drills so yay no capsizing. but kayaking sucked. we didnt kayak very far out, the fun was supposed to be in the activities we were supposed to do like standing on our kayaks and exchanging partners in the middle of the sea. but the stupid currents kept making us drift near the rocky areas so we spent most of the three hours rafting up and breaking raft before doing anything cos we kept having to kayak away from the rocks. hello frustrating much? but i liked our instructor, she exudes i'm-cool-because-i-can-kayak-proly-unlike-some-of-you-sigh-darlings-what-on-earth-are-you-doing vibes. in a good way. at night had presentation things and reflections and whatevernots. i was half asleep throughout. even so, I SAW A RAT! okay a [really tiny] mouse but yes. and i amused myself by watching the camelot instrcutors attempting to catch it. i dont know if they did in the end, so good luck to future campers. planes were extra noisy last night, and mozzies were extra thirsty. ):

third day a few sec ones and twos came and we took over as fascilitators while our own fascis just sat around and observed. yada yada, cleanup, closing ceremony, HOME! and that was basically lead camp. i left out a lot of things but whatever?

progress reports tomrrow. OH THE JOY!

Sunday, November 05, 2006
{ 5:22 AM on '' }


fuck i so dont want to pack for lead camp.

lalala who loves paul? MARYAM LOVES PAUL! as you can tell i'm retarded yet again. i think it's a paul thing, he makes you retarded. which is good. ANYWAY. at first i was lazy to go for the lakeside thing but thankgod i did. [: oh yes, i love aunty cecilia and lina and mary and all the other aunties. haha how weird does that sound. but yes they're all so cute and supportive and auntyly [like motherly, get it?]. i want paul's family. ):

anyways, he came [after we did, tsk for punctuality], he sang, he left. OH YES first we saw him and arina as usual started squealing and pinching my arm, and then we saw norman, then jasmine, then emilee! i got my hopes up for a bit cos i thought maybe, just MAYBE noodle would miraculously appear too. but nooooo. ):

but it was good. very upclose and personal. we were all sitting on the floor like 50cm away from him heh. oh and jasmine was sitting right in front of me, her hair was practically in my face. was very tempted to take a picture with her just to spite yiyun. :D but nah i couldnt be bothered. oh, paul gave us kinder bueno too! like half of the chocolate egg thing. awww.


i know, what an odd and fugly picture. i look fugly, he looks odd. and that's norman being extra in the bg.

still [though less] fugly.

btw, guess who stayed up till 1am to STUDY last night? okay i did. for madrasah. but i started at 12am. :D

anyway, when i grow up i'm not gonna make my bed. it's so impractical. at the end of the day you have to unmake your bed to sleep in it what. so what's the point? unless you have busybody guests who are going to invade your bedroom? seriously.

RAAR LEAD CAMP. hate hate hate hate. screw nat and eczema. FINE I SHALL STOP AND GO PACK NOW in 30 mins time.


hotstuff? :D [i repeat, i'm a tad retarded]


Wednesday, November 01, 2006
{ 3:45 AM on '' }


hellooooooooo! i'm damn tired and sleepyyyyy. ok let's start with netcarn.

i shan't say much cos, yknow, there are touchy issues involved. but i guess overall netcarn was fun. [: instead of looking at it as DAMN WE MISSED FIRST PLACE BY ONE MEASLY POINT!, we should all be like, YAY we got second out of sixteen classes! plus, we only lost by a point so we practically already won anyways. optimism people!

so later that night we had a "halloween party" at ruiling's! of course, it wasnt very halloweenish cos nobody dressed up and we didnt have candy. haha. but we did see bunches of kids going trick-or-treating around her neighbourhood, which btw is super duper ulu. so fun right! like how come i never went trick-or-treating. ):

so yeah, in the end we [me, ruiling, yiyun, dian, ivy, si ning, has, fads, hui hui, flora, dora] just hung out and watched tv and pigged out on pizzas. it was damn fun cos we were all being stupid. well except for hui hui, who was being all Piggy-ish and mean, which is unlike her at all. haha. OH and doraaaa! who didnt close the door when she went to pee ahahahah! not exactly la, but i'm lazy to tell the whole story. and yiyun was being stupid cos she kept hearing wrong things and was talking about irrelevant things most of the time. yeah so basically we just had fun bitching talking about anything and everything, and laughing our asses off.

we left her house at 10+, and yiyun, dian and i headed off to dian's place cos we were staying over and ponning school the next day. yes people, maryam's 100% attendance streak has finally come to an end! hahaha how loser am i. we attempted to watch spongebob movie [i suggested something else but they outnumbered me ):] in the middle of the night but we all zonked out heh. oh yes, you would think that since we were all ponning school, we could wake up at like 11 or something but noooo, SOMEONE'S alarm had to go off at 6am raaaar! it was bloody loud and she didnt wake up! yiyun and i just stared at each other helplessly and were like, MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP [in our minds ah cos we were half asleep] and finally dear dian shuts it up. /: so at 9-ish yiyun left for her doctor's appointment.

si ning came over later on, and told us that the only people who went to school were those involved in farewell assembly rehearsal and those who already used up the three parent's letters allowed for the year. that would be like, 1/4 of the class? haha. oh yes, alif is DAMN cuteeee! and smart too. he was doing dunnowhat, so we were like, alif what are you doing, must be up to something right. and he gave this super cheeky grin and ran away! and he kept pointing to the rain and going, hutan! hutan! he means hujan [rain] la.

then dian's friends came for raya. i cant believe they still call me pidato girl, hello i have a name? heh. and this is where i humiliated myself. i was helping dian plop ice cubes into her friends' glasses la, but yknow i'm not good at that sort of thing so like kaboosh [sorry i dont know what sound it's supposed to be] went an ice cube onto their plate of mee! and another one onto the floor. ayeee so embarrassing. ): then dian had to go for track so me and si ning roamed around orchard.

so yes I AM SLEEPY. and my right ankle feels wobbly. prestige tmr, hopefully. for now, back to gilmore girls. :D

MARYAM (:
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