Showin' how funky strong is your fight.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
{ 11:48 PM on '' }


because i wont get to blog for some time...



everyone order your tickets now! it'll be fun and exciting, i promise. hahaha.

okay then, off to the land of baguettes and croissants. au revoir mes amis!


Saturday, May 26, 2007
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i feel like i havent been here in a really long time. but i don't exactly have anything to say, so i don't know why i'm here now either. hmm. holidays have begun? if you could call it that anyway. woo. hoo. and france is nearing. ): someone remind me why i even signed up for it?

had bahas taklimat today. i think we got the most challenging mauduk. i'm scared, but cikgu's happy because apparently having a scary mauduk in the first round is a good thing because it prepares us for more horrible mauduks to come? good luck to us. oh and rj bahas too! i'm more excited for them than us. go rj woo woo!

Sunday, May 20, 2007
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WAAAAA gilmore finale just added to my misery and depression. ): seriously, how can seven whole seasons end just like that! it was so abrupt and NOTHING was resolved. after all these years, they just end with lorelai and luke kissing in the final episode? rory going away, fine i guess the producers had to come up with something, but i wanted to at least watch lorelai saying goodbye to rory properly. i'm so pisseddddddd, they should've just agreed to do another seasonnnnnnnnnnnnn! ): ): ):

okay back to gel electrophoresis.

Thursday, May 17, 2007
{ 5:53 AM on '' }


english: dropped by two bands. somehow i don't feel that bad for english, maybe because it was the last paper we got back and i couldnt care less anymore.

math: havent gotten back pt, but i'm guessing dropped by two bands also. i knew i was gonna fail the paper, i just never expected it to be that bad. it was like chem eoy paper last year, but at least for chem i and [practically] the whole cohort had no idea what we were doing. but for this math paper i knew how to do it, it's just that i completely blanked out during the test. and i feel damn guilty because miss ng is such a nice teacher. ):

malay: same band. paper was horrible, and before anyone goes to point out that i didnt do too badly you have to realise that malay is was the only subject i could depend on.

ss: improved by one band. thank God i didnt screw up my pt.

bio: dropped by two bands. it's solely based on one paper alone, so i'm hoping i dont screw up spa.

chem: same band. i dont feel bad about chem either, even though i failed overall again. at least i improved by 11 marks as compared to last year's eoy paper.

hist: dropped by two bands. very very very disappointed history. need to ace the pt.

lit: same band, thank God.

in case you didnt realise, my gpa improved for only ONE subject and dropped by two bands for three. and considering that my gpa last year was already damn bad, God knows what my gpa would be this time. i'm definitely at the lowest point of my school life. the one paper i majorly screwed up just HAD to be math, and it had to be THAT badly, and it had to be the only subject with double weightage. i'm very very very scared. ):

Monday, May 14, 2007
{ 5:28 AM on '' }


school makes me so so miserable. ): honestly, the moment i stepped through the school gate just now i instantly got this heavy, dreary feeling and all i wanted to do was turn back around. i'm quite sure it has nothing to do with the fact that i got booked for coming late today [i timed my arrival okay! if assembly hadnt ended late i would've escaped. but nooo. and SOME people can constantly wake up late/pon/not bring nametag and not get booked. injustice!] anyway, it's like i'm perpetually pmsy and have lost interest in everything. the only time when i can honestly say that i'm not frustrated with the world is during madrasah. at least i'm surrounded by good people doing good things so i feel good as well. but when the whole camp thing is over life will become mundane again. i'm so bloody sick of this. i'm dreading tomorrow because there's school, and the day after that because there's school, and the day after that because there's school. please please let the holidays come soon.

Friday, May 11, 2007
{ 9:08 AM on '' }


as you can see either blogger's screwed up or it's time to get a new laptop cos my post didnt appear and i bet this wont appear either and by the time you see this it's like months later or something. but anyway. i wrote about how screwed up exams were and all that shiat but that's like so yesterday now hahaha.

today was a fun day! i came to school at..... TEN! cos i was like, "feeling unwell" in the morning. haha. but honestly i shouldnt have bothered at all. the whole day screamed pointless. except for the [pathetic] batch outing and crystal pretending to be a spy. the poor girl never had a childhood you see.

and guess what exciting event filled up my calendar on this friday night! i spent 2 1/2 hrs in madrasah, arent i cool! i was so not keen to go but it didnt turn out to be so bad after all. if you're reading this ustazah aishah, [i wont be surprised, she's sneaky like that] HELLO! i didnt go clubbing tonight, arent you proud of me. :D she's so hilarious and infuriating at the same time. i told her to come visit our ora booth and she looked at me like i was insane. ok la, i was just offering right. she was teasing me about having a curfew and making me sound like so pathetic so of course i had to defend myself and tell her that i dont have a curfew. and then she gave a long dont-abuse-your-lack-of-curfew speech, but i know she's just jealous that i go clubbing and she doesnt. she mocks everything i say ok, and when i asked her for help for wau! she attempted to ignore me which of course made me bug her even more.

ustzh: eh who's your perbayu president anyway?
maryam: ? you wouldnt know who she is what! nurulhuda.
ustzh: who's that?
maryam: exactly.
ustzh: eh yang mana satu nurulhuda?
maryam: short hair, prefect. the only prefect in my batch. (pause) what dyou mean yang mana satu?! you mean you know how my batchmates look like?
ustzh: -smirk-

she stalks me, i swear.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007
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Thursday, May 03, 2007
{ 6:52 AM on '' }


OH MY CRAP Wau! is already being publicised on imranajmain.com! woo awesome! :D

Wednesday, May 02, 2007
{ 6:41 AM on '' }


the previous skin was too damn bright and perky man. everyone's in a blackish greyish mood nowadays so tada!

time if flying too damn fast. it's already may. midyears are here, soon comes france(!!!) and then wau! (keep your fingers and toes crossed!) and then school reopens and then it's eoys and then it's options and then poof! rg life is over. man oh man oh man.

oh right, that is considering i actually make it out of here. of course you know there's no hope when you blog even though you have to mug ss and do a whole bunch of trigo revision wksts and whatnot. so yes. farewell my friends.

MARYAM (:
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