Showin' how funky strong is your fight.
Friday, July 24, 2009
{ 8:01 AM on '' }


CT: I see your econs and math grades are horribly disappointing. Do you all not try? Do you not understand what's happening in class? When I see all of you at the wishing well, what on earth are all of you doing?
Class: Studying.
CT: Study what?!
Class: Math and econs.
CT: Well ok then. You just have to try harder.

Why do people tend you assume you don't try just because you don't get good grades? I honestly think we are trying hard. Not hard enough to get good enough grades maybe, but as hard as we can. This is life (or lack thereof) till December. All for what? For the 5 minutes that the Cambridge markers spend on each essay we write. Sad isn't it. It's not even August yet and I'm already starting to tire.

Thursday, July 16, 2009
{ 1:37 AM on '' }


A(not counted since I didn't sit for paper 1 in school)BBBD. Although I might get a heart attack if this was my a level resuls, I am quite contented for now. I think.

To-do list (as a reminder of how doomed I am everytime I go online):

1. Personal leadership experience thing
2. SGC

3. Reread Othello
4. Reread Pnp
5. Sort out the barrage of pnp notes we received right before cts
6. Reread Hamlet
7. Reread Donne
8. Read Herbert
9. Practise PC essays
10. Practise Renaissance unseen essays

11. Reread Restu D: D: D: (i really really really don't want to do this but considering my Restu essays are always Da Bomb i.e 6/20 I think I have to)
12. Reread all the cerpens/sajaks/drama
13. Read BH everyday

14. Be a kepo and listen during h2 math classes so I won't be so lost when h1 Finally teaches it
15. Practise x4230948230480007
16. Programme my brain to STOP MAKING STUPID MISTAKES UGH

17. Go for tuition regularly and not whenever I feel like it
18. One essay/case study per week? (Macam betul...)
19. Listen during lectures since there is no time left and we haven't even started on globalisation plus I totally wasn't paying attention to international trade ugh how is it that every other jc has finished their econs syllabus huh huh huh

20. Read each Ksbull front to back 10 ten times (ok maybe 2 or 3)
21. Read Time articles
22. Watch news
23. Do 32804857207502 summaries ugh 2.5/8 right so clever.
24. Memorise the dictionary (kidding. i think.)
25. Remember to not write stupid things like ON THE CONTRAST (i swear i meant to write contrary)

To-NOT-do list:
1. Buy online things on impulse
2. Buy overpriced nonsense from 7-11
3. Sleep/breathe/shop/play/watch movies for the next 4 months
4. Be stupid.

MAKKAU STRESS SIOL.

Thursday, July 09, 2009
{ 1:39 AM on '' }



Hi Dian (:
(I couldn't find an uglier picture I don't know where all my sec one photos are ):)

Saturday, July 04, 2009
{ 7:13 AM on '' }


I think I have lost the will to shop. Orchard the whole of today and I didn't buy anything worth buying. I bought stickers and folder and colour pencil I don't know why. I think I only like shopping online now but the problem is I cannot try things on and I hate feeling like my bank account is depleting (which is really the case) and I hate waiting for stuff to arrive and worrying that they may get lost in the mail and having my mum nag about how dangerous online shopping is whenever a parcel arrives. But I do it anyway because it's fun. Actual shopping doesn't work for me anymore and it kinda makes me sad. I am weird I know. Like how nobody understands why I am sad about MJ's death. Not like I am an avid fan but I really feel sad for him. He was like a tragic hero, a fallen star who only truly lived onstage and when he wasn't onstage he didn't know how to live. I know I am so macam paham but yea let me be. He should have had his comeback tour to redeem himself so people would remember him for the genius he was. I hope at least he is truly happy now wherever he is.

I feel out of touch with so many people (or just people in general. I am a recluse). Maybe I need facebook to get me back in touch hah but I will be such a noob when everyone else has been using it for the past 2930858923553 years so I won't bother. Like how I will be so noob and jakon taking the circle line now when most people use it like everyday so I won't bother haha I am weird. Actually most of the time I don't remember it exists because 59 ftw. But yesterday after malay (YES I SAT FOR IT EVEN THOUGH MY TEMP WAS 37.6. I told them i was rushing to school and the weather was hot so they made me rest and take again and it was 37.5 thank god if not I studied for nothing) as I was walking to the interchange I was thinking about how there should be a faster, sheltered way to get there without realising there is the circle line now. No wonder practically no one was walking in the hot sun. Smart people.

I can't decide if I will miss school or not after a levels. I suppose like Nat said I will miss school in general but not rj in particular. Like maybe I will miss wearing uniform and having classrooms and even things like having assembly and pe(?!). But, I'd like to think my uni life will be so kickass that I won't miss jc life one bit. It will happen just watch me. But if it doesn't please don't laugh in my face because I will be sad.

MARYAM (:
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