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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
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So A levels have been really gruelling but enlightening too. I have learnt that:
1) Just because you don't feel stressed doesn't mean you're not. Other than the stupz panic attack before the first paper I actually felt relatively calm for the rest? And I thought that I wasn't stressed but the pimples hair loss and weight gain obviously prove me wrong. Nobody told me it would physically degenerate my body ): And it's subconscious like I don't feel hungry or anything but just to take a break from stupid studying I would somehow find myself in the kitchen looking for food and it doesn't help that my mum seems to keep replenishing the chocolate supply in the fridge. Really depressing. And even though I don't Feel stressed even during the papers themselves, it is translated in my papers. Like I don't feel very pressured or anything but I can't think straight and I tend to not finish organising my thoughts before I start writing which is mega mega bad.
2) I am a coward. I am afraid to try things that I am not used to. Like for econs even if a globalisation question or oil question is easy I wouldn't do it because I am not confortable and I'm scared to try even though I did study the topics. Cowardly like that. Which led me to do the Othello essay instead of context even though the context was SO OBVIOUSLY the easier choice and in fact I kinda anticipated it but because I don't usually do context I stuck to the essay which I totally regretted at that time and whined like hell (leading my dear classmate to make that srjc comment). In retrospect I don't regret it anymore I mean everything happens for a reason and there must be some warped reason my brain decided to pick the harder question. So for the next lit paper (ie today's) I learnt my lesson and decided that I will be brave. And I was! :D I usually do poem for Renaissance unseen because the dramas always seem too long with too many words and I'm always scared that by the time I analyse it I won't have enough time to write. But this time I did drama instead of poem even though some people are saying that the poem was the easier choice but I'm really proud of myself for picking something I don't usually do and felt really good about it. Even though it was a weird drama because it wasn't a revenge tragedy (No one believed me when I said the drama could be a comedy!!!) but yea I'm glad I chose it. I know this is like such a trivial matter but I'm really happy it's a small step in getting rid of my cowardly ways.
In my excitement today I forgot to bring my jacket, almost forgot my pencil case (this happens to me for almost every paper), forgot to bring notes/books that I'm supposed to return cikgu and left my books in my locker. Macam damn excited so grabbed my bag and dumped my texts in my locker without thinking about when the hell I'm going to collect my books. As much as I thought I didn't want to keep the Lit texts I actually kinda do haha sentimental konon. I love Lit. So I have to return someday before they decide to clear our lockers? And to return cikgu's stuff. Spoiler sia. In the meantime GOODBYE RJ YOU HAVE NOT BEEN GOOD TO ME GOODBYE GOODBYE
Friday, November 20, 2009
{ 6:08 AM on '' }
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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
{ 3:23 AM on '' }
DEAR CAMBRIDGE PLEASE ACCEPT CONSUMPTION AS AN INJECTION PLEASE I BEG YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ON MY KNEES AND EVERYTHING
{ 1:59 AM on '' }
Today someone asked me if I'm Malay and whether Islam is a god.
Yesterday someone said don't worry la think about all the srjc kids. We sure A one!
Just WHAT is wrong with the people in this school. If someone reading this is from srjc I apologise on his behalf he's just an idiot
Monday, November 02, 2009
{ 3:12 AM on '' }
I figured sitting for my first A level paper is momentous enough to warrant an entry so here we go.
I was damn volatile yesterday like for a few hours I was damn zen then panic then zen then panic. I went to bed feeling zen but my brain apparently didn't agree with my heart because it was on overoverovertime and I only woke up like 2894834828242267 times throughout the night with random malay words swirling in my head and at some point random poems because my brain decided oh let's switch to Lit now. So I was super sleepy (but still zen) by the time I woke up. I was zen on the way to school too until Diah texted me about how nervous she was and that was when I had a major panic attack haha I know damn drama I can't wait to look back on this and laugh (right now can't quite laugh yet cos I don't find myself That ridic yet). There I was almost hyperventilating in the bus haha I swear it was the most nervous I've been in my entire life. It was like the moments before a bahas final, only 100 times worse. Like I was trembling and my heart was trying to pound its way out of my chest. When I got to school I went to the wishing well in hopes of finding familiar faces that could offer some semblance of comfort and lo and behold there were Nat Yingqi and Christina thank god. The other two soon disappeared so I stayed with Yq for like half hour or so and she thankfully distracted me with her Lit SAT stuff and offered me precious Lakerol and finally I could breathe and function like a normal person. I hadn't eaten at all and was planning to grab something in school but decided against it in case I puked which seemed quite likely to happen. So my stomach was growling like an vicious bulldog (are there friendly/cute/happy bulldogs?) throughout. So anyway I was back to being calm right but my brain again refused to work with my heart and I had to open my locker 3 or 4 times because I kept forgetting things like jacket and entry proof and whatnot.
At this point you might have realised I haven't mentioned anything about the paper and I am not going to because it is against my principles. Chey. Not really because I kinda ranted to Kak Mai a bit but other than that my motto for A levels is Jangan Pandang Belakang. That's why I kinda wish I had a paper tomorrow so it's easier for me to stop thinking about today's paper. But kinda only la. Anyway my second motto for A levels is Do Not Underestimate The Bell Curve. Which is related to the first motto because ultimately The Bell Curve determines what grade you get so there is no use thinking about how you did right. Even if you think YES DAMN HAPPY EVERYTHING I STUDIED CAME OUT, for all you know eveybody in Singapore is thinking the same thing and you will actually get a lousy grade. And the reverse might be true even if you think OMG I SCREWED UP TTM. So... Just study and pray for the best.
Ok I know I said I wasn't going to talk about the paper but actually I meant that I wasn't going to talk about how I did or felt about it. -start rant- Can I just say that it is very mean to have things like "jenayah yang melibatkan ugutan dan perampasan harta milik orang lain" and "pecah masuk rumah dan jenayah dan bersangkutan" in the alih teks. The former is Ten words and the latter seven. By the time I make a point I would have used up half of the word count or something. Menyusahkan orang can. - end rant-
Ok dah bye
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Tuesday, November 24, 2009
{ 8:01 AM on '' }
So A levels have been really gruelling but enlightening too. I have learnt that:
1) Just because you don't feel stressed doesn't mean you're not. Other than the stupz panic attack before the first paper I actually felt relatively calm for the rest? And I thought that I wasn't stressed but the pimples hair loss and weight gain obviously prove me wrong. Nobody told me it would physically degenerate my body ): And it's subconscious like I don't feel hungry or anything but just to take a break from stupid studying I would somehow find myself in the kitchen looking for food and it doesn't help that my mum seems to keep replenishing the chocolate supply in the fridge. Really depressing. And even though I don't Feel stressed even during the papers themselves, it is translated in my papers. Like I don't feel very pressured or anything but I can't think straight and I tend to not finish organising my thoughts before I start writing which is mega mega bad.
2) I am a coward. I am afraid to try things that I am not used to. Like for econs even if a globalisation question or oil question is easy I wouldn't do it because I am not confortable and I'm scared to try even though I did study the topics. Cowardly like that. Which led me to do the Othello essay instead of context even though the context was SO OBVIOUSLY the easier choice and in fact I kinda anticipated it but because I don't usually do context I stuck to the essay which I totally regretted at that time and whined like hell (leading my dear classmate to make that srjc comment). In retrospect I don't regret it anymore I mean everything happens for a reason and there must be some warped reason my brain decided to pick the harder question. So for the next lit paper (ie today's) I learnt my lesson and decided that I will be brave. And I was! :D I usually do poem for Renaissance unseen because the dramas always seem too long with too many words and I'm always scared that by the time I analyse it I won't have enough time to write. But this time I did drama instead of poem even though some people are saying that the poem was the easier choice but I'm really proud of myself for picking something I don't usually do and felt really good about it. Even though it was a weird drama because it wasn't a revenge tragedy (No one believed me when I said the drama could be a comedy!!!) but yea I'm glad I chose it. I know this is like such a trivial matter but I'm really happy it's a small step in getting rid of my cowardly ways.
In my excitement today I forgot to bring my jacket, almost forgot my pencil case (this happens to me for almost every paper), forgot to bring notes/books that I'm supposed to return cikgu and left my books in my locker. Macam damn excited so grabbed my bag and dumped my texts in my locker without thinking about when the hell I'm going to collect my books. As much as I thought I didn't want to keep the Lit texts I actually kinda do haha sentimental konon. I love Lit. So I have to return someday before they decide to clear our lockers? And to return cikgu's stuff. Spoiler sia. In the meantime GOODBYE RJ YOU HAVE NOT BEEN GOOD TO ME GOODBYE GOODBYE
Friday, November 20, 2009
{ 6:08 AM on '' }
From this
Down to this
Excited kepe
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
{ 3:23 AM on '' }
DEAR CAMBRIDGE PLEASE ACCEPT CONSUMPTION AS AN INJECTION PLEASE I BEG YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ON MY KNEES AND EVERYTHING
{ 1:59 AM on '' }
Today someone asked me if I'm Malay and whether Islam is a god.
Yesterday someone said don't worry la think about all the srjc kids. We sure A one!
Just WHAT is wrong with the people in this school. If someone reading this is from srjc I apologise on his behalf he's just an idiot
Monday, November 02, 2009
{ 3:12 AM on '' }
I figured sitting for my first A level paper is momentous enough to warrant an entry so here we go.
I was damn volatile yesterday like for a few hours I was damn zen then panic then zen then panic. I went to bed feeling zen but my brain apparently didn't agree with my heart because it was on overoverovertime and I only woke up like 2894834828242267 times throughout the night with random malay words swirling in my head and at some point random poems because my brain decided oh let's switch to Lit now. So I was super sleepy (but still zen) by the time I woke up. I was zen on the way to school too until Diah texted me about how nervous she was and that was when I had a major panic attack haha I know damn drama I can't wait to look back on this and laugh (right now can't quite laugh yet cos I don't find myself That ridic yet). There I was almost hyperventilating in the bus haha I swear it was the most nervous I've been in my entire life. It was like the moments before a bahas final, only 100 times worse. Like I was trembling and my heart was trying to pound its way out of my chest. When I got to school I went to the wishing well in hopes of finding familiar faces that could offer some semblance of comfort and lo and behold there were Nat Yingqi and Christina thank god. The other two soon disappeared so I stayed with Yq for like half hour or so and she thankfully distracted me with her Lit SAT stuff and offered me precious Lakerol and finally I could breathe and function like a normal person. I hadn't eaten at all and was planning to grab something in school but decided against it in case I puked which seemed quite likely to happen. So my stomach was growling like an vicious bulldog (are there friendly/cute/happy bulldogs?) throughout. So anyway I was back to being calm right but my brain again refused to work with my heart and I had to open my locker 3 or 4 times because I kept forgetting things like jacket and entry proof and whatnot.
At this point you might have realised I haven't mentioned anything about the paper and I am not going to because it is against my principles. Chey. Not really because I kinda ranted to Kak Mai a bit but other than that my motto for A levels is Jangan Pandang Belakang. That's why I kinda wish I had a paper tomorrow so it's easier for me to stop thinking about today's paper. But kinda only la. Anyway my second motto for A levels is Do Not Underestimate The Bell Curve. Which is related to the first motto because ultimately The Bell Curve determines what grade you get so there is no use thinking about how you did right. Even if you think YES DAMN HAPPY EVERYTHING I STUDIED CAME OUT, for all you know eveybody in Singapore is thinking the same thing and you will actually get a lousy grade. And the reverse might be true even if you think OMG I SCREWED UP TTM. So... Just study and pray for the best.
Ok I know I said I wasn't going to talk about the paper but actually I meant that I wasn't going to talk about how I did or felt about it. -start rant- Can I just say that it is very mean to have things like "jenayah yang melibatkan ugutan dan perampasan harta milik orang lain" and "pecah masuk rumah dan jenayah dan bersangkutan" in the alih teks. The former is Ten words and the latter seven. By the time I make a point I would have used up half of the word count or something. Menyusahkan orang can. - end rant-
Ok dah bye
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