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Monday, November 02, 2009
{ 3:12 AM on '' }
I figured sitting for my first A level paper is momentous enough to warrant an entry so here we go.
I was damn volatile yesterday like for a few hours I was damn zen then panic then zen then panic. I went to bed feeling zen but my brain apparently didn't agree with my heart because it was on overoverovertime and I only woke up like 2894834828242267 times throughout the night with random malay words swirling in my head and at some point random poems because my brain decided oh let's switch to Lit now. So I was super sleepy (but still zen) by the time I woke up. I was zen on the way to school too until Diah texted me about how nervous she was and that was when I had a major panic attack haha I know damn drama I can't wait to look back on this and laugh (right now can't quite laugh yet cos I don't find myself That ridic yet). There I was almost hyperventilating in the bus haha I swear it was the most nervous I've been in my entire life. It was like the moments before a bahas final, only 100 times worse. Like I was trembling and my heart was trying to pound its way out of my chest. When I got to school I went to the wishing well in hopes of finding familiar faces that could offer some semblance of comfort and lo and behold there were Nat Yingqi and Christina thank god. The other two soon disappeared so I stayed with Yq for like half hour or so and she thankfully distracted me with her Lit SAT stuff and offered me precious Lakerol and finally I could breathe and function like a normal person. I hadn't eaten at all and was planning to grab something in school but decided against it in case I puked which seemed quite likely to happen. So my stomach was growling like an vicious bulldog (are there friendly/cute/happy bulldogs?) throughout. So anyway I was back to being calm right but my brain again refused to work with my heart and I had to open my locker 3 or 4 times because I kept forgetting things like jacket and entry proof and whatnot.
At this point you might have realised I haven't mentioned anything about the paper and I am not going to because it is against my principles. Chey. Not really because I kinda ranted to Kak Mai a bit but other than that my motto for A levels is Jangan Pandang Belakang. That's why I kinda wish I had a paper tomorrow so it's easier for me to stop thinking about today's paper. But kinda only la. Anyway my second motto for A levels is Do Not Underestimate The Bell Curve. Which is related to the first motto because ultimately The Bell Curve determines what grade you get so there is no use thinking about how you did right. Even if you think YES DAMN HAPPY EVERYTHING I STUDIED CAME OUT, for all you know eveybody in Singapore is thinking the same thing and you will actually get a lousy grade. And the reverse might be true even if you think OMG I SCREWED UP TTM. So... Just study and pray for the best.
Ok I know I said I wasn't going to talk about the paper but actually I meant that I wasn't going to talk about how I did or felt about it. -start rant- Can I just say that it is very mean to have things like "jenayah yang melibatkan ugutan dan perampasan harta milik orang lain" and "pecah masuk rumah dan jenayah dan bersangkutan" in the alih teks. The former is Ten words and the latter seven. By the time I make a point I would have used up half of the word count or something. Menyusahkan orang can. - end rant-
Ok dah bye
Friday, October 02, 2009
{ 2:35 AM on '' }
First A level paper is in exactly one month. Goodbye see you on 24th November. (CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
{ 7:09 AM on '' }
After two long days of walking for around 10 hours each, I GOT MY PROM DRESS!!!!! Happy gils nak mamps! My heart quite pain cos still ex in my view though cheaper than the River Island one but I love it much more and believe that I will really rewear it in future. Plus if you add up the amount I spent on prom in sec4 it is around the same as my dress? And I am not buying shoes or clutch so quite ok mah. Yea I am trying to assuage my guilt. Zhiyi and Nu got their dresses too so today was a good day! I know Dee damn sian and fedup with our indecisiveness and pickiness heheh but she followed us around anyway thank youuuuuu. And thank you Jill whose membership cards saved me 15 bucks off my dress and 10 bucks off my bracelet you are my saviourrrrr. Not that they will read this but wellzzzz. Penat gils ok no more spending and I will start studying soon. Maybe.
Friday, September 25, 2009
{ 11:57 PM on '' }
I'm really sad that I went to get a haircut ): So much for reaching my goal of boob-length hair. Since my hair was so gross and damaged I figured it was time for a haricut considering the last time I went was Feb-ish. Figured I'd get a trim, maybe a bit of layering but the place I usually go to is goneee so I went to a random place buttttt the person hardly spoke english and despite saying A BIT complete with hand gestures and all she chopped off a lot anyway now I look (more) hideous (than before) and I will have ugly hair at prom ugh. Plus an ugly dress because I cannot afford that perfect dress ugh ugh. If Dee is getting extensions maybe I'll get extensions too? Or get another haircut and make it shorter instead of this dunnowhat length and shape. ORRRR go all out and get Fathin's hair so I can sneak into mediacorp and get all the free stuff. Yes/no?
I need to get some FAST shampoo and conditioner. Will I get boob length hair by prom? Hmmmmmmmm.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
{ 9:12 AM on '' }
OH. MY. GOD. I OPENED THE STORE DOOR TO TAKE SOMETHING AND IT WAS DARK AND I FELT SOMETHING ON MY FOOT AND I LOOKED DOWN AND IT WAS A FUCKING LIZARD I SCREAMED BLOODY MURDER AND FELT LIKE CUTTING MY FOOT OFF OH MY GOD.
I'm fine now but it was bloody bloody gross worse experience of my life. So anyway prelims are O to the V to the E to the R!!!! Excited nak mamps now I am free like the Burung-burung Di Puncak Gunung (hahahhaha) even though it was so screwed up but like Ikram who fails term tests but emerges as top SPM student, I will emerge as top A level student. Macam betol. And I will stop with the malay lit references.
Singapore Idol is like my favourite guilty pleasure it is so fun to watch! And I love the Fathin girl (partly because I love all the songs she sings) but I really don't think she looks like me. Where got sia. I like Duane too he is so funny. Ok they are both totally younger than me. Not cool.
Dah ah excited gils besok shopping! Damn stressed about prom what to wear where to buy ):
Sunday, September 20, 2009
{ 9:35 AM on '' }
So today I discovered my relatives think I am all set to be a lawyer. Ho ho ho more people to disappoint.
Friday, September 18, 2009
{ 3:13 AM on '' }
What are the chances of getting A/B for econs at Alevels if I get U for prelims?
Case study fail+essay fail = Alevels fail = A very sad Maryam
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Monday, November 02, 2009
{ 3:12 AM on '' }
I figured sitting for my first A level paper is momentous enough to warrant an entry so here we go.
I was damn volatile yesterday like for a few hours I was damn zen then panic then zen then panic. I went to bed feeling zen but my brain apparently didn't agree with my heart because it was on overoverovertime and I only woke up like 2894834828242267 times throughout the night with random malay words swirling in my head and at some point random poems because my brain decided oh let's switch to Lit now. So I was super sleepy (but still zen) by the time I woke up. I was zen on the way to school too until Diah texted me about how nervous she was and that was when I had a major panic attack haha I know damn drama I can't wait to look back on this and laugh (right now can't quite laugh yet cos I don't find myself That ridic yet). There I was almost hyperventilating in the bus haha I swear it was the most nervous I've been in my entire life. It was like the moments before a bahas final, only 100 times worse. Like I was trembling and my heart was trying to pound its way out of my chest. When I got to school I went to the wishing well in hopes of finding familiar faces that could offer some semblance of comfort and lo and behold there were Nat Yingqi and Christina thank god. The other two soon disappeared so I stayed with Yq for like half hour or so and she thankfully distracted me with her Lit SAT stuff and offered me precious Lakerol and finally I could breathe and function like a normal person. I hadn't eaten at all and was planning to grab something in school but decided against it in case I puked which seemed quite likely to happen. So my stomach was growling like an vicious bulldog (are there friendly/cute/happy bulldogs?) throughout. So anyway I was back to being calm right but my brain again refused to work with my heart and I had to open my locker 3 or 4 times because I kept forgetting things like jacket and entry proof and whatnot.
At this point you might have realised I haven't mentioned anything about the paper and I am not going to because it is against my principles. Chey. Not really because I kinda ranted to Kak Mai a bit but other than that my motto for A levels is Jangan Pandang Belakang. That's why I kinda wish I had a paper tomorrow so it's easier for me to stop thinking about today's paper. But kinda only la. Anyway my second motto for A levels is Do Not Underestimate The Bell Curve. Which is related to the first motto because ultimately The Bell Curve determines what grade you get so there is no use thinking about how you did right. Even if you think YES DAMN HAPPY EVERYTHING I STUDIED CAME OUT, for all you know eveybody in Singapore is thinking the same thing and you will actually get a lousy grade. And the reverse might be true even if you think OMG I SCREWED UP TTM. So... Just study and pray for the best.
Ok I know I said I wasn't going to talk about the paper but actually I meant that I wasn't going to talk about how I did or felt about it. -start rant- Can I just say that it is very mean to have things like "jenayah yang melibatkan ugutan dan perampasan harta milik orang lain" and "pecah masuk rumah dan jenayah dan bersangkutan" in the alih teks. The former is Ten words and the latter seven. By the time I make a point I would have used up half of the word count or something. Menyusahkan orang can. - end rant-
Ok dah bye
Friday, October 02, 2009
{ 2:35 AM on '' }
First A level paper is in exactly one month. Goodbye see you on 24th November. (CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!)
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
{ 7:09 AM on '' }
After two long days of walking for around 10 hours each, I GOT MY PROM DRESS!!!!! Happy gils nak mamps! My heart quite pain cos still ex in my view though cheaper than the River Island one but I love it much more and believe that I will really rewear it in future. Plus if you add up the amount I spent on prom in sec4 it is around the same as my dress? And I am not buying shoes or clutch so quite ok mah. Yea I am trying to assuage my guilt. Zhiyi and Nu got their dresses too so today was a good day! I know Dee damn sian and fedup with our indecisiveness and pickiness heheh but she followed us around anyway thank youuuuuu. And thank you Jill whose membership cards saved me 15 bucks off my dress and 10 bucks off my bracelet you are my saviourrrrr. Not that they will read this but wellzzzz. Penat gils ok no more spending and I will start studying soon. Maybe.
Friday, September 25, 2009
{ 11:57 PM on '' }
I'm really sad that I went to get a haircut ): So much for reaching my goal of boob-length hair. Since my hair was so gross and damaged I figured it was time for a haricut considering the last time I went was Feb-ish. Figured I'd get a trim, maybe a bit of layering but the place I usually go to is goneee so I went to a random place buttttt the person hardly spoke english and despite saying A BIT complete with hand gestures and all she chopped off a lot anyway now I look (more) hideous (than before) and I will have ugly hair at prom ugh. Plus an ugly dress because I cannot afford that perfect dress ugh ugh. If Dee is getting extensions maybe I'll get extensions too? Or get another haircut and make it shorter instead of this dunnowhat length and shape. ORRRR go all out and get Fathin's hair so I can sneak into mediacorp and get all the free stuff. Yes/no?
I need to get some FAST shampoo and conditioner. Will I get boob length hair by prom? Hmmmmmmmm.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
{ 9:12 AM on '' }
OH. MY. GOD. I OPENED THE STORE DOOR TO TAKE SOMETHING AND IT WAS DARK AND I FELT SOMETHING ON MY FOOT AND I LOOKED DOWN AND IT WAS A FUCKING LIZARD I SCREAMED BLOODY MURDER AND FELT LIKE CUTTING MY FOOT OFF OH MY GOD.
I'm fine now but it was bloody bloody gross worse experience of my life. So anyway prelims are O to the V to the E to the R!!!! Excited nak mamps now I am free like the Burung-burung Di Puncak Gunung (hahahhaha) even though it was so screwed up but like Ikram who fails term tests but emerges as top SPM student, I will emerge as top A level student. Macam betol. And I will stop with the malay lit references.
Singapore Idol is like my favourite guilty pleasure it is so fun to watch! And I love the Fathin girl (partly because I love all the songs she sings) but I really don't think she looks like me. Where got sia. I like Duane too he is so funny. Ok they are both totally younger than me. Not cool.
Dah ah excited gils besok shopping! Damn stressed about prom what to wear where to buy ):
Sunday, September 20, 2009
{ 9:35 AM on '' }
So today I discovered my relatives think I am all set to be a lawyer. Ho ho ho more people to disappoint.
Friday, September 18, 2009
{ 3:13 AM on '' }
What are the chances of getting A/B for econs at Alevels if I get U for prelims?
Case study fail+essay fail = Alevels fail = A very sad Maryam
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